Been a While!

BUT! My show is HUNG! I am DONE!.

I am so happy :) I just can't. UGh :)

Now, I need to catch up in life and do all my papers and take all these tests and hopefully pass them all...

Life.
Keep me feeling good.

Also, Derek is coming to my opening. #Excited #Happy :)
Icannotwait.

Looking at everything, I look so happy. And in general I am happy.
I have so many friends, I get so many compliments on how I look (which is a mild surprise to me), my work ethic, and little talents or knacks I guess I have. People love me. So I am puzzled: Surprisingly, I am single and that is one thing I just can not be, even though it has only been 3 months.

I wish this chocolate orange had the orange flavor in it :/

Sometimes,  I feel truly blessed by the people I have in my life. In a matter of seconds after expressing my odd relatively unhappy mood, I got a response from a friend that made me smile. It was so simple and so genuine. That is all I can ask for: Caring people in my life.

I hate being alone.
I just need someone to hold on to.
Or for someone to hold on to me.
Comfort.
Simple things.
I dont need that much emotional support, but could always use it regardless.

I have hit a point in this semester where I just dont care anymore about school.
I dont want to write these papers.
I find no enjoyment out of the readings.
I am not sure what kicked in to feel this way.
I am missing a certain person
And also missing others.
I almost regret choices I've made, but I can't. I can't regret anything because I will always believe that at one point, the decisions I had made were important. I made these decisions because they were necessary at the time. It was the right choice to make then. I will always hold this to be true.

Now, I have possibly, no: Definitely, over 20 pages of papers to write by Wednesday. Life just needs to stop and breathe for a minute. Please?

This is nothing particularly important, but I just want to say that you made me comfortable.
You made me feel comfortable to be with you.
I felt pretty.
I felt attractive.
I dont need your affection or attention to feel this way though.
This is why this is not particularly important.
I dont need you to justify myself.
Lets make that clear.
I had fun
It felt nice.
I was comfortable and we all want to feel comfortable in the company of others.
And you could do that for me.
That is all and Nothing more as far as I'm concerned.
I dont want you to take anything the wrong way
Or think that I need your attention.
Im Interested.
Not Desperate.

Comfort

Im in the Basement again covering for tom. Extra $$$$ H0ll3R


Anywhose... Continuing on with Lost. ITS SOOOOO GOOD. UGH Maxx is going back and forth behind my shoulder making small comments here and there about some characters. It's pretty funny. Haha, Im gonna miss these guys. Cory is here working too. He is cutting a new woodblock and it looks beautiful!

Cory Wasnewsky
February 26, 2012
Montserrat College of Art.
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Yesterday was pretty solid. I woke up super later than I should have. Texted with Justin. Went shopping with Kelly and Brie, that was pretty fun. Drove in a huge circle through Peabody just to get back home. Brie almost lost her weave in the wind... lol. Got home. Watched Lost some more and later continued to watch Lost with Justin for a bit before we had a pretty solid night.

I am going to miss beverly when I leave for Florida. I will miss it a lot. I have made so many good friends here and have met so many good people. It is sad that our time together is coming to an end. But hey, there is no reason to cry. We have enjoyed the company of one another and now it is time to make new friends and appreciate the friendships which have been made.

It has been a busy week.
It will continue to be a busy week until March 21st haha.
We got our Senior Thesis Post Cards in today!!! :D Yay!
They look FANTASTIC. I am really excited about this.
I have a lot of meetings to go to currently as well as a lot of response papers to finish. I should really stop watching Lost and stop knitting for a minute to get this done.

We had house inspections today and the house is looking really good. I also re arranged my room so that I have more space for my plants. They are getting So Big! :)

I need to scan some more of the polaroids onto my computer, I haven't dont that in a while, but I will the second I have the time. Also, I will take out the sewing machine and start putting some things together. Including clothing for mice. I think I wrote about that in an earlier post, but anyways it's an inside joke I need to get back on.

I have been meeting some new people recently which has been nice. But they are not really the kind of people I would hang out with all the time which is kind of a bummer. Oh well. There are plenty more people in the world haha.

I have to plan some things with my girls for Activities ASAP for this month and get next months activity done soon as well.

I also had a mild passive aggressive spat with one of the girls. She apologized today. Im not holding anything against her. I think certain things in her life are just hitting her hard and maybe she just snapped. It happens to the best of us.

I am interested in the events to come this weekend though. Potential plans to meet another new person, hopes are high but not realistic. Like everything else in life. Also tomorrow after I get out of work I am going to the DeCordova Museum. A museum I have never been to, so this should be good :)

I also went to a Contemporary Cocktail in Hardie tonight. It was a good discussion about craft as art. I wish I could have stayed for the whole thing but I had to cut out early

I always think that I have to be somewhere else.
Or that I have something else to do.

Next weekend I am going to drive a UHaul for the first time. I am helping Michael move out of Atlantic to Jamaica Plain. Im sure it will be a good time. I really like it when my friends ask me for my help on things because not only does it make me feel useful, but I get such a joy lending people a helping hand. It makes me happy :)

Also what makes me happy is having someone to text good morning to, or someone to hug, or to say goodnight to. and to talk to about little things. I have hopes.

I also have work at 630AM so I should go to bed now. 

It is Valentines day, or for those of us who are single it is Singles Awareness Day (S.A.D.)
Joe and I texted for a bit last night which made me happy. Even though we are no longer together we are each others' valentine. It make me happy to know that we can still be in each others' lives.

I think I caught that awful stomach bug that had been going around, but I am trying to ward it off.
So far I am just sore with a headache and sore throat.
Whatever.
I made it to the gym anyways. Even though BOTH Jon AND Ben totally bailed this morning. I can understand Jon bailing. But Ben.. I shake my head, I will only extend my courtesy so far.
I will go no matter what because I am doing this for me.
Yes, I may be pushing myself a little too hard or too far (and maybe I wouldn't be sick right now) but I have a plan and i am sticking to it damnit!

I have to go catch up on reading
I will probably be up late tonight.
Getting printmaking done
as well as reading for seminar
and two response papers.
Why am I this far behind already?

#WorkingOnIt.